a voice to be heard

these days have been easier than i thought, and it’s all because i’ve been skipping...

Fri, 04 May 2012 23:49:21 -0400

these days have been easier than i thought, and it’s all because i’ve been skipping school. I feel happy now and calmed, relaxed. Worried because of the exams i have next week. I was thinking about the situation, how to deal with it from now on, it’s not hard to leave this, but it’s hard to pretend that nothing happened and simply move on. It’ not that simple, but i’ll figure it out as the time passes through, and also (and hopefully) with the help of my friends everything will be better :)

wow

Wed, 02 May 2012 13:06:42 -0400

well, i’m on my way home thinking about today and what i just heard. It’s funny how life is playing with me. Maybe this is telling me something more. I guess i’m never satisfied and i want more. I keep coming back to the same old memories that once fucked my mind. So i guess this is time to say good bye to all that shit, cause i’m too tired to keep fighting against it. It’s too exhausting, but it’s my fault. I know that. Hope it isn’t late to change.

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Sun, 29 Apr 2012 23:20:35 -0400

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Sun, 29 Apr 2012 23:07:27 -0400

i hope, but i know the answer.

Sun, 29 Apr 2012 22:49:57 -0400

i hope, but i know the answer.

thoughts

Sun, 29 Apr 2012 22:47:08 -0400

it’s veen a while since i don’t post anything here, so i feel like i’ve left this space alone. well, i’ve been just living lately, realizing what i want, organizing priorities. but i’m exhausted, and that’s becoming some kind of impediment to everything i want to achieve (if i really want to do something here). and when it comes to the heart, days have been really weird (as always anyway) so that. i’m just having some rest these days so i’m off, peace. :)

mmm

Tue, 17 Apr 2012 21:56:34 -0400

it’s been a while since i don’t post here. it’s becoming really hard to be me these days, specially when your grades become worse than before. well, and going to the main topic of almost all of my posts, i can’t say anything about that. things are weirder, i don’t understand anything and i’m starting to realize that i’m nowhere. like i’m going somewhere but i don’t know the way back (have i said that before? maybe lol). and that, nothing good going on here, i’m just stressed, sad and frustrated, but that’s becoming really normal nowadays.

kdpekfnjd

Thu, 12 Apr 2012 10:52:49 -0400

well, today blows already. i mean i don’t know what the fuck is going on. i feel like i got into a plane and i still don’t get to destiny. so now i’m like off. i don’t even care now. so if someone wants to explain to me why should i care about everything because to me nothing makes any sense now.

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Tue, 10 Apr 2012 20:14:20 -0400

well, so i’m back and it’s been a while now. i’ve been thinking about the things i’ve done, and the things i wanna do. it’s weird how everything leeds me to the same thing. i’m really hoping that this situation could change after all i’ve been through, but i’m not really worried about the future. in fact, i couldn’t care less lol. so schools is awful and my situation is probably getting worse but i take it. i don’t know anything anymore. i’m just living and hoping i get through this year. by now, one of the most complicated ones.

resting

Fri, 06 Apr 2012 21:19:41 -0400

while i’m in viña i’ve been thinking about guys a lot. i saw a lot of hot guys here that i really want next to me like NOW. so, hot guys in viña, i’ll give you the address of where i’m staying if you have what it takes.

weird.

Thu, 05 Apr 2012 12:13:19 -0400

somehow now i hate liturgys specifically when the guy you like is next to you and they tell you to grab everybody’s hands and stay like that while we pray. if we could resume this week in one word, it’ll be weird. i thought so many things, i dissapointed myself. i don’t know, i guess i need some fresh air. i need to clear my head and think from my brain, not from my heart, even though is becoming so difficult to do that i need to forget the past. create a new world. it feels incomplete beign here, like i have no reasons to be here now. i’d like to run away but that’s for cowards and i’m not one of those. i’m gonna relax in this 3 days and rest as long as i can, and think about what i’m gonna do with me, with everything.

Listening: Olly Murs - Oh My Goodness

Thu, 05 Apr 2012 11:56:19 -0400

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Tue, 03 Apr 2012 20:54:25 -0400

is all i ever do.

Mon, 02 Apr 2012 20:29:26 -0400

is all i ever do.

la sociedad y nuestra identidad

Mon, 02 Apr 2012 18:58:34 -0400

A pesar de que no he escrito en español, me animaré a hacerlo por esta vez, ya que los que miran este tumblr (muy pocos xd) hablan en ambos idiomas. Haré una pequeña reflexión. Me he dado cuenta de como la gente en general escoge aquello que la daña, ¿Se imaginan si todo fuera igual, si todos fueran iguales? Quizá conforma parte de aquel cambio que busca el ser humano. Si todo fuera color de rosa sería muy aburrido. A la larga uno termina aburriendose. O acaso ¿en las películas siempre las chicas se van con los chicos malos y los chicos buenos son rechazados siempre? Eso es parte tambien, quizá de un cliché que nos ha impuesto tambien esta sociedad, que a ratos parece que nos indicara todo lo que debemos hacer. Incluso como comportarnos. Eso me pasa a mí. Nunca hago lo que se supone que debo hacer. ¿Pero y si la sociedad está mal y yo estoy bien? ¿Por qué yo tengo que pertenecer a la masa, no podré alguna vez resaltar por sobre los demás? Creo que en ese sentido la sociedad en la que estamos inmersos no nos deja avanzar y a ratos sentimos que somos más que solo esto. Que nos merecemos algo mejor. Que estamos hechos para cosas más grandes. Más importantes. Pero a menudo el sistema nos impone lo que debemos hacer, o incluso estudiar. Entonces tratamos de hacer de nuestro día a día algo diferente. Cambiar la rutina. Pero siempre somos mirados como raros y por miedo a ridiculizarnos no hacemos cosas que deberíamos hacer por gusto. ¿Cuándo la sociedad se dará cuenta que somos todos distintos, pero que todos nos merecemos lo mismo? ¿O quizás la sociedad está en malas manos siempre y necesitamos renovar nuestra identidad como seres humanos, no seguir a aquellos líderes perversos de sonrisa fácil y promesas absurdas? Pero como seres humanos siempre volvemos a la mismo, porque quizás es más fácil aferrarse a lo que tenemos a cambiar, a progresar, a renovarnos, así que seguimos cometiendo los mismos errores y cayendo en las mismas manos. Tanto en plano general como personal. ¿Será entonces la sociedad quien secretamente dicta lo que debemos pensar a través de mecanismos de acción masivos tales como los medios de comunicación, la políticam etc? Lo único que sé que con respecto al año pasado no he aprendido nada, a pesar de todo lo que pensé y viví y al parecer esto tienen aún para rato más.

he’s way too hot to even exist. lol

Mon, 02 Apr 2012 18:38:23 -0400

he’s way too hot to even exist. lol

what am i gonna do with my life?

Sat, 31 Mar 2012 21:43:22 -0400

Beside my sentimental problems, i still don’t know what i wanna study or if i’m even mature enough to get into a university. I don’t even have plans. What If i don’t get into the university I want? What If life has something better for me? How am i suppossed to know that shit? Fuck it. I’m gonna be homeless (just kidding lol). I don’t know. I guess I’m a mess once again. :D

i hate you destiny

Sat, 31 Mar 2012 21:23:27 -0400

Well, lately things have been a little out of edge in my mind. Don’t worry, I’m not crazy, yet. I guess i did talk about the guy i used to like, did I? Well, I guess destiny doesn’t want us to be away, even though he’s in all of my classes (fucked up right?) and he’s been acting all weird these days. So I don’t really know if i have said before that he was dating someone. Well, they’re in huge crisis now and he’s told me almost everything about them. I really feel sorry for him. She’s been a HUGE WHORE with him, and he’s gave up so much for her… The problem is that I CAN’T GET HIM OUT OF MY MIND NOW. He’s in everything i do and that’s fucking me up. We have a weird connection that never faded away even when we were not talking to each other. So well, I don’t know, he even came to my house yesterday and we talked a lot. I know i need to relax but i just can’t. I knew this was gonna happen in the end. The worst thing is that he makes me feel sorry for him. He’s all grown up now. I try to find a reason to step back, but now there are more good reasons. Well I don’t know. I’m screwed once again. I’m gonna have to do everything with him, either way I’m gonna fail at all the tests and I don’t want that lol. Well that. And to my friends that are watching this, don’t hate me. Hate my brain :)

Listening: Adele - Chasing Pavements

OMG! This is to celebrate that TheWanted is following me on...

Mon, 26 Mar 2012 21:48:12 -0400

OMG! This is to celebrate that TheWanted is following me on tumblr! :D Love you guys! Greetings from Chile! :D

strange feeling

Sun, 18 Mar 2012 22:11:35 -0400

Even though i’m trying not to talk about my personal life, there’s a guy that keeps crossing my mind all the time. He was (or still is, idk) my friend last year. He’s a hottie actually but well nothing happen between us and well i just can’t get him off my mind. I don’ know. I guess i need someone else.

Listening: Adele - Someone Like You